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It's the countdown to his birthday, and his first year being with me. And he deserved to have a new, or well. Adjusted face-up. And now that I did it I remember why I love him so much. And I'm happy I finally captured a picture of him that's once again gloomy, but describes him better then I had tried before. To me. Even when this is not the most intrueging shot. I think. It shows the anger and sadness he puts away, always and keeps inside of him.

So I challenged myself to make each photo count. As this being just to show his new adjustments off. I am going to sit my ass down, and write you a story who Mari really is. And I want to start doing it with each character. So here's Mari, I think my most detailed character that I own.

So, instead of telling you what Mari loves to do, what his hobbies are. I will just describe what Mari really does, and what makes him tick.
Well firstly making another thing clear: Mari is a twin, and his brother lives across the ocean. They were seperated when their parents split up. From a young age, and Mari has been dealing with this ever since as well. I think, this is where his depression slowly started. Under the surface.

Mari is blinde on one eye (his right) not the one you can see right now. This was due to a car accident on his 20th, he was driving. Even though there was nothing he could do to stop it, it had cost him more then he wanted to. Him and his friends got hit by another car trying to cut in on their line. Mari wasn't paying attention to said car and to his friend on the passanger side, nonetheless the reckless driver up front couldn't care for shit and drove them off the road, into the railing. It caused the front window to burst, he hit his head on the wheel and got a lot of his glass in his face, and unfortunately. His eye. The worst part for him is he was still better off then his two buddies. (worst part for HIM?) yes. Because he still lives with the guilt of his friends, one who is still in a wheelchair. And the other who got severe head trauma/damage and broken arms which he still cant use 100% but he's getting better.
It changed his life around completely. He got more reliable on others, and a really big angst for driving. Whilst he was actually growing more solitude, a hermit. He needed friends, family or lovers the most. And started to push people away. Not wanting to hurt anyone anymore. Or wanted anyone to hurt him back. He stopped giving love a chance as he was screwed up way too much in the past (small reminder, he was with Nolan for a verrrrry long time) and he moved away without a word. Though their relationship was already slipping before that anyway. Nolan paid no more mind to Mari, he was too busy. With his work, school, everything. Mari began to stray from Nolan and other principles, getting in trouble, fucking friend's boyfriends. Get into fights due to it. And basically just allowing his body to anyone who was willing to take it.

He moved away from home. Re-united with Nolan after all those years. It was a slow process, Mari began to fell in love with him again. But at the same time, not putting his hopes up. They shared such a history, and they were both 'their first'... There was a connection there. However Nolan was still as busy as always, pleading he was sorry to Mari and he had missed him so, after so much time had passed. But soon Nolan just got back into his old routine again. Left Mari alone, but offered him a job, and a room to stay in. Because Mari was left with nothing. He left London to pretty much flee from the bullshit, friends and those who he betrayed. For now. He was content.
Or so he thought.

He found himself a new bar, to hang out, meet up with people. And with meeting one a whole new world opened. And a not so good one either. For him. And once more, he foolishly gave love another shot. And he went all the way with it, getting so carried away, he lost himself in it. And had zero zelf respect left after the guy dumped him for someone else. Even though they werent together for long, this has just left him crushed, his depression severed. Already a little while before the man cut the tieds, he started to harm himself. Drowning himself in misery and taking it out on his skin. Tears were no longer enough, he was so done. Drama, after drama, more problems, so much pain.
He began to thought he was suposed to die that very day. At the car crash, his life was such a let down, HE.. was suposed to die that day. For the horror he put his friends through (in his eyes) still there was nothing he could do.

A new friend he made helped him through it. Fell in love.. Even. How could this be, he thought, another change. But he didn't believe in it anymore, he grew skittish towards the whole concept of love. Not trusting anything about it anymore. But still it worked.
But more drama ensued, the other wanted him back, and so they kept being off.. And on.. Off and on...
He still hasn't made up his mind untill this very day.

But not only this, has left him with completely nothing. No perminant job. No graduation from school, just so completely empty. Only the people he can rely on. And again just pushes away, thinking that once he does have the courage to end it all. People wont be so sad to see him go. Nothing completes him anymore. It seems. There's no joy or hope to be found in him. And in the meantime he just keeps on punishing himself.

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It kind of aches me to have such a character. I feel like I'm torturing him. But really, when I started to roleplay him, he just totally came to life. Even though it got worse, he just got so under my skin. And I love every bit of his story. And everyone who has written along with me to this point.

Anyways, to make a decent end to this comment section. This is a song that's kind of... Typical for me right now, on how I see Mari. Or how he's thinking. Not sure, but I just love the song. And the lyrics really match Mari. [link]
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DarkEmpressSerenity Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013
:icontearsplz: That's so sad. I just want to give him a big bear hug :iconhugplz:
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kfasf Featured By Owner May 16, 2013
This is so sad.
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:iconneko-baka-olush:
Neko-Baka-Olush Featured By Owner May 3, 2013
This is really amazing BJD! His eyes are really stunning! o u o
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ZoiKiKu96 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2013
Omo does he have freckles?!?!? thats the cutest!!
He has a gorgeous look to him~~ ^^
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:iconpindakees:
Pindakees Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2013
Few birthmarks ^^
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Gman565690 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Is that even a doll ??
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brujitamiaka Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013
hello I can say that your body has jina of migidoll
I bought the head yevo almost 5 months looking body
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:iconpindakees:
Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
What?
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:iconbrujitamiaka:
brujitamiaka Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
that your body has jina of migidoll
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:iconpindakees:
Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
No... B&G
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:iconbrujitamiaka:
brujitamiaka Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
que casa es el cuerpo
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MrBaeBJD123 Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013
mari is my favourite of you BJD...
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:iconpindakees:
Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
Awesome thanks!
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MrBaeBJD123 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013
by the way is it his new hair style..?? i like
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Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
Yes ^^
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MrBaeBJD123 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013
most welcome..~ ^^
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Fear-teh-Spork Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Student Photographer
I love Mari the most out of all your boys. Though I haven't been through what he has, I can definitely relate to him. Severe depression is something I have been struggling through for years, and I recognize the feelings and thoughts he has...I just want to hug him :sniff:

The song in my head for him is "Shine (Acoustic)" by Nordic Giants...maybe check it out if you have time? It's sad but beautiful, kind of like Mari. <3
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Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
Awwwwwwww

And thanks I'll listen to it some time! ^^
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manda-j-panda Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Wah, Mari ;__;
This photo really illustrates this story. You have such deep characters built up for your dolls- sometimes I wish I could be that in-depth with mine.
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Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013
Aww dont give up, just create stories around them, that you can relate to with your own life.
Maybe start out by giving them a cool job, or whatever.
Dont laugh but I based Mari and Nolan's background on a ... Picture.... XD I found years ago, it wasn't the most SFW picture, but still.
Anyways.
The part about his depression didn't even came to me untill later, but it worked, cuz it couldve been there all along from the moment he lost his twin. So. And the accident. But the real depression only started after someone he loved so much just royally dumped him for someone else. Which is less then a year ago in RP.
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manda-j-panda Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I'm definitely going to have to. I know their likes and dislikes and personalities... but I haven't worked on the background. They just exist at the moment xD poor things
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neoanimegirl Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Professional General Artist
Such a sad story but you gave him such a great story. To me it's great giving him a well thought out story that you can relate and others. So it's not torturing him, not everyone's story could be a happy one.

For example my dolls, Akio, he had a great life up until he died. He was going to be a body guard to his older sister Morina who's is going to be a high priestess & leader to their village but then these people came into their village who wanted to take Morina for her powers & killed everyone. Sadly he was the first to died but his magic was so strong he came to this world in doll form. (I'll workout the details later) Years later after Morina was kidnapped, she sense her brother was alive but not of the world. Later on she send a small piece of herself to be with him and now they live together with me on my desk.

There's a lot I need to work on but that's the summary of both of my dolls' stories. But also I'm not saying a happy character/ doll wouldn't have a well thought out story but people can relate to some tragedy or hardship.

Again, I really love reading your dolls' stories, you put a lot of thought into their personalities.
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Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013
Why not put it in a story sometime??? ^^ just a general story, I cant see why anyone would hate you for THAT.
I mean movie makers, writers do it all the time you know.
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neoanimegirl Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Professional General Artist
Oh thanks! I will and when I do I'll be sure to share it with you. :D
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Rainbow--Ferret Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
He does have a rather tragic story and Eric's isn't much better D: He tries to tell Mari that he's there but he keeps getting pushed away and it's not doing HIM any favours either. XD Daaaah, they need something good to happen to them to get them out of this rut <3
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Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013
I know XDD... It's just. What Mari does.
He thinks it's easier to push people away so he wont get hurt, or he wont hurt back. Etc etc.
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Rainbow--Ferret Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Heh, don't think he realises that he's hurting Eric by constantly pushing him away. Siiiiigh
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:iconpindakees:
Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013
No I think he does, they're so complicated.....
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Rainbow--Ferret Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Lol they really are XD They just really need one another I think
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anamsohail Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Cute!
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kekieh-23 Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
Omg why must you have the best dolls. Snuggles him. I freaking always love your dolls. I wish I could do amazing photos like these lol
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Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013
Awww well I'm glad you like them tho! : D
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kekieh-23 Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013
I love them lol. My dolls are jelous of their awesomeness lol
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xBehindBlueEyes Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student General Artist
Absolutely gorgeous :heart:
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pinkninjakitty Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
How do you make your dolls? They are amazing! I was wondering if you start with a base, or if you start from scratch?
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Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013
I dont make them, please refer to my doll FAQ ^^
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pinkninjakitty Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh cool, thanks<3
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TheMichaelMacRae Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
She buys creepy lady-boy dolls and takes photos of them. That's it.
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HaterzGonnaHatez Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013


>creepy lady boy dolls



How are resin dolls creepy, sir? They're beautiful so it would only be obvious she'd take photos of him.
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TheMichaelMacRae Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
They look pretty creepy to me.
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:iconakiyomichiyo:
Akiyomichiyo Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Wow. Rude much?. if you don't like them don't come to her photos.
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TheMichaelMacRae Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yup. Don't care.
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JulieKrizan Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student Digital Artist
She doesn't make them.
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akodieon Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah, Mari's on the front page! And I now know more about him! :excited: Thanks so much for this, Shikitii! :tighthug:x100
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FENsquierDER Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Professional Photographer
please take a look at my new photography group [link] anyone is welcome
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DarkAnimePanther Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
I absolutely love his back story, thank you for sharing <3
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dragon-flames Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013   Photographer
i really like this doll i like his story and all the thought you put into it thanks so much for sharing it with us. i have to say he's my favorite doll out of the ones you have. <3
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Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013
Awww because of he story.. Or?
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dragon-flames Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013   Photographer
partly i love his story he seems more human. then theres his looks hes very pretty and i love his tattoos and piercings.. its hard to explain really why i like him maybe i can relate in ways to his character.
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Pindakees Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
Maybe ^^ but thanks anyway, its not always bad to.. Not have a reason, you can like someone and not really realize why. You just do.
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